Dear Diary,

I’m so tired of my Instagram not looking exactly the way I’d like for it to look, but with where I’m currently working, my budget doesn’t allow me a brand new closet with the clothes I wish I had (the struggle with having bougie taste but a 7/hr salary). So, yesterday I decided to just go to a store I haven’t shopped in years to try and find a really cheap outfit just for a new photoshoot. I was reminded why I stopped going to that store. I was also reminded of my issues with trying on clothing and trying to find things that fit. It’s such a struggle being plus sized sometimes AND being insecure and not happy with your looks. It makes me so upset with myself. I left the store empty handed and upset. Just makes me wonder….will I ever get it together?

With love,