Tomorrow is the day that I officially start my last year in my twenties and I’m not exactly sure how to feel about it. I think my mind at this time is more focused on the fact that I will not only turn thirty next year, but it will also be my golden birthday. I have so much to do before then, and I’ll be spending this last year doing it all before I hit the big 3-0.
It’s funny because I’ve always loved my birthday, but I’ve also had moments where, as I got older, I kept thinking about it and dreading it (not my birthday but the getting older part). I still hate that I’m getting older and it’s scary, but I’ve managed to distract my mind by taking cute birthday photoshoots every year ( follow me on Instagram to not miss this year’s photos)!
I hope to make my 29th year on this earth the best one. I haven’t had the best time in my twenties, especially the last few years, but I haven’t had a terrible time either. With that said, I understand how society will say that I should have everything together in my life before I turn 30, but luckily I don’t believe in that social construct. However, my goal for this year is to work on myself as much as I can so that once the time comes, I’m not exiting my last year in my twenties nor entering my thirties the same as many years prior. Would be nice to have all the things an “adult” should have before then? Yes, but not because I’ll be thirty next year, but because it’s things that I’ve always wanted for myself.
I hate that I’m entering my last year working on feeling better about myself instead of fully enjoying it, but my hope is to do both. Regardless, I’m grateful for another year and I pray that twenty-nine is good to me!