Dear diary,

This content creator life really knows how to push you out of your shell in ways you never could imagine. Being something that I want to do full-time, content creating has me knowingly and unknowingly breaking out, and in front of tons of people on the internet no less. How can I unknowingly break out of my shell? Let me explain what I mean by both ways because I thought about this, and it’s really interesting to me how these things happened since diving into this field.

So, the way I’m fully aware of breaking out of my shell as a creator by the way I’m starting to do reels on Instagram. I do not like reels at all for two reasons. The first reason is because they are just so much work to create and edit! I see other creators talk about how they’ve this many number of reels, and it just amazes me that there are people with that much energy. Personally, I don’t have that much energy to even create one, let alone multiple. The second reason is because of the fact that I don’t like being on camera. I despise it and that mainly has to do with my insecurities. However, I told myself that I need to start thinking like a creator if this is going to be a full-time thing. That didn’t mean that I HAD to create reels in order to think like a creator, but it did mean that I need to get in game mode with creating content. I like to do so in as many avenues as I can fit. Are reels a pain to create and edit? Absolutely! I’m not throwing them out like other creators, but I’m still breaking out of my shell and trying something new AND getting used to showing people the creator behind the creations.

The way I’m not always necessarily aware of how being a content creator is breaking me out of my shell is by way of my photoshoots that I do for Instagram. I love looking cute and wearing cute clothes, so when I get outfits, it’s not just to “flex on the gram”, it’s because I just like and/or need cute clothes to wear. What I didn’t fully realize was that creating this content is breaking me out of my shell. Buying the clothes is nothing new, but the type of clothes I’m buying and doing these poses showing my full body to post on Instagram, that’s different. I’m buying clothes that, yes I think are cute, but would probably be too scared to try. However, I need the content for Instagram and I want to bring my follower’s variety, so I’m trying different things like shorts. I’m doing full-body photos and taking all sorts of pictures for content. In my mind, I’m just thinking that I need to get content, but I’m also breaking out at the same moment. It’s so mind-blowing, but it’s such a beautiful thing at the same time.

I’m so grateful for the light that has guided me to the content creator world, and I’m so blessed to have such amazing supporters who are literally watching me break out of my shell and do things that are very uncomfortable for me at times…even if they don’t know it.

Here’s to many more moments of breaking out of my shell and growing as a full-time content creator!