One thing about me is that I’m super hard on myself. You know, you see others succeeding and you’re truly happy for them. You cheer them on, but you can’t help but feel a little bit of comparison coming on. That has been the case for me, possibly, the last couple of months. I’m so happy for all of my fellow blogger friends, but it just seems like I’m very stagnant. No matter how much you know about not comparing yourself and how everyone grows and gets to different points in their life in their own time, it doesn’t stop the feeling from creeping up. Knowing this information can help you pull yourself out of that feeling, but it doesn’t keep you from feeling it at all.
Although this past year has been filled with some surprising blessings, there have been so many challenges and battles within myself that I feel have helped in me remaining stagnant. Maybe I don’t seem stagnant to others, but I’ve yet to move to where I need to be. I know it takes time and I don’t plan on rushing anything, but still, it can become discouraging. It HAS become discouraging. What has helped me push through are the kind words that I’ve received on a daily. These words are not just from people who I know personally, but from people who I’ve met through the internet thanks to this blogging journey. Between working hard every single day, dealing with the emotions the craziness of the world is bringing, and dealing with the battles that are within me…it can become pretty easy to want to give up. When I hear others tell me how good I’m doing or they’re proud of me, it almost makes me want to cry. Those words keep me pushing and makes me want to fight each and every single day for my dream.
If this past year hasn’t taught me anything, it’s certainly taught me to keep pushing through.
Challenges make you discover things about yourself that you never really knew.Cicely Tyson