This is my first shot at trying these diary entries. I hope that they end out well and become not only really therapeutic for me, but relatable for others. I have a lot on my mind, but my main thought this morning is how much of a failure I feel. I was supposed to wake up early this morning, go to the gym, and go to the car wash. I planned to be productive and feel good, but I ended up feeling shitty about myself yet again. It’s such a struggle when I can’t get myself up in the morning and do the things that I want/planned to do. I hope that changes for me soon because this feeling isn’t a good one at all.